For no reason why, this morning I remember bout my one of my best friend. D is her name. She's quite fun, smart, and warm. That why I love to hang around her so much. Y'know, one day, I was at her place. She said she wanted to show me something. D said, she would show me her precious one. I thought, she was going to introduce me to her boy friend or show me a pic of him. But then again, she wanted me to follow her to her room. And guess what guys.. there was a baby there. Her baby. A cute one. She was married (and still is though), but no one knows about that. It shocked me up at that time.

That leads me on to my question this morning. What is the best shock that u ever discovered about your best friend? Tell me guys.

To deny what is not true, easy.
To deny what is a part true, not so easy.
To deny what is could be true, really not so easy.
To deny what is true, brings u uneasy.

But, they say life is about choice.
Just choose and make no noise.

But to deny what is inside doesnt feel right.
Not denying it, make your heart strangled tight.

Dear stranger.
U dont pull the trigger.
I dont pull the trigger.
No one to blame.
Nothing to be ashame.

If it's a no go.
Then one shall not go.

Dear stranger, I'm falling for you, but it is a decision I made to do the best I could, to deny it.

A true friend, hard to find.
The one that’ll make our days shine.
The one that’ll make the atmosphere fun.
The sincere one.

But, Friends is a lot of kind.
Good one or deceive one.
Hope that u get the good one.
Hope that u’re not the deceive one.

But life could be the unkind.
Motives could turns the fine.
That’ll stab your heart u from behind.
That’ll wipe away your shine.

This one goes for my friends, good one - deceive one, and myself.

Good Morning!

Gee, it's been a while since I the last time I find something to share on in this page. Anw, Right now, i only have a question. What is it that you are afraid to lose?
Feed me back your comment guys!!

As Robbie says these....:

Send someone to love me, I need to rest in arms, Keep me safe from harm, In pouring rain.
Give me endless summer, Lord I fear the cold, Feel I'm getting old, Before my time
As my soul heals the shame, I will grow through this pain, Lord I'm doing all I can, To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience, 'Cause it's not my fault, I know I've been taught, To take the blame
Rest assured my angels, Will catch my tears, Walk me out of here, I'm in pain
As my soul heals the shame, I will grow through this pain, Lord I'm doing all I can, To be a better man

Once you've found that lover, You're homeward bound, Love is all around, Love is all around
I know some have fallen, On stony ground, But Love is all around

Send someone to love me, I need to rest in arms, Keep me safe from harm, In pouring rain
Give me endless summer, Lord I fear the cold, Feel I'm getting old, Before my time
As my soul heals the shame, I will grow through this pain, Lord I'm doin' all I can, To be a better man

I lost my trust in love.

"You Want The Truth? You Can't Handle The Truth!"
Jack Nicholson as Colonel Jessup in 'A Few Good Men'. 1992.

Kadang-kadang memang kebenaran nggak bisa jadi kebenaran ya. Apalagi kalau dilengkapi sama rasa takut dari efek kebenaran itu sendiri. Cuman, kenapa ya banyak yang bilang 'be yourself', sementara nggak bener-bener banyak yang mau jadi dirinya sendiri. Harus 'hidup'. Itu mungkin alasan yang masuk akal. Geee, it'll be such a pain in the ass, if we have to make everybody's happy.

You cannot change the truth, but the truth can change you. I hope not though.
For my friends, I just luv the friendships. The truth is out there.

Why can't a blue, be a blue.
Sometimes when we look at one perspective, we might capture the wrong one.
Sometimes when we sense one feeling, we might sense the wrong one.
Sometimes when we think we know one thing, we might not.

Sometimes we even have to let ourself trapped in a room that we don't wanna be in.
Why can't a blue, be a blue.
Tell me.

Wortel Vs. Ayam

x: Jadi nyo, gue tadi ke giant.
y: Makan apa lu?
x: Noodle-nodle-an gitu. Asian noodle or sumthing.
y: Gak enak kan disitu?
x: Gak papa kok. Makanan gue abis. Jarang-jarang gitu makanan gue abis. Tapi tadi gue juga pesen jus wortel.
y: Jus wortel ya?
x: Iya. Mister wortel kata anak-anak.
y: Ja, kalo menurut gue yah, elu tuh ayam deh, bukan wortel. Kemana-mana kan elu pesen ayam.
x: Iya ya? Tapi gak tau ya nyo, akhir-akhir ini kalo keluar ama anak-anak gue sering ditemuin ama wortel. Dulu-dulu, pas jaman sma - smp, gue emang suka wortel. Pas jalan ama anak-anak, wortel is on the menu. Karena ada ya gue pesen aja. Enak juga rasanya.

Wortel Or Ayam.
Life is about Choices.
I chose, and it's not gonna be an easy decision to live with.

If Life is so short,
I would be with my love one.

If Life is so short,
I would be be a total moron who oppose all the world thoughts.

If Life is so short,
I would be a total me.

Just if.
What if not.

The big difference between sex for money and sex for free, Is that sex for money usually costs a lot less!
Brendan Francis

Fellas, saya lagi butuuh banget hasil survey atas perilaku seks. Particularly, tentang perilaku seks di Indo. Tapi kalau punya data tentang perilaku seks yang secara global di dunia, juga boleh. Pls do submit to my email ya.. sayamirza@hotmail.com, atau mirza@hardrockfm.com.

Thanks a lot fellas!! :)

Love, starts with faith, lives on hope, and dies in distance.


So r u starting to believe that there's no future between us? Don't be so pessimistic dear, it's us that are in r'ship not her. Beneran deh, selama ada cinta.
(6:02 pm 30 JAN 03)

Hey, sorry to disturb u, but i just would like u to know, that i really want u 2 be at my side. Miss ur smile. laughter and kisses.
(1:36 am 8 FEB 03)

I do care much about u dear. Kamu gak bertepuk sebelah tangan lo. Just want to let u know. Mwah. Nite hun. I'm convinced now that u r the 1.
(10:49 pm 24 FEB 03)

Nite hun, may the stars watch u when u r sleeping.
(12:03 am 26 FEB 03)

Gosh, i miss u already. U've made believe in long distance relationship.
(11:35 pm 25 MAR 03)

Thx huney, life sux without u. Hehe luv ya.
(2:56 pm 4 APR 03)

Thanks 4 being u hun. Berkat kamu aku gak bt lg. Gosh. Love u more by each day. Btw td aku ngucapin 'assalamualaikum' ke calon mertua. Hehe.
(10:14 pm 14 APR 03)

You should know that i love u so much.
(7:02 pm 21 APR 03)

Kira2 seminggu lalu, we were making out. I miss u. And by heavens I love U so much.
(12:11 am 25 APR 03)

Darling, honey. Aku cuma kesel aja gitu. Tapi tidak lagi. I really appreciate all the things u've done to me. I believe in u and ur love. I love you, sunshine. .
(2:28 1 MAY 03)

I feel guilty though. Prolly 'coz i've never given u anything in return. All i could give 2 u now is my undying love. I love you so much.
(5:09 pm 1 MAY 03)

I love u, as u may have known i HAD doubts abt ldr. But i'm ready to make the commitments required to make us real. I love u. Really Do. Mwah.
(12:20 am 31 MAY 03)

Doesn't matter who sent message to who. What really count is the feeling was mutual and real.

Happy Birthday dear. U were the one. Really.

WORD UP

agnostic *
*= got it yesterday on ym! chat with utin, my -now married- 'history'.

Definisi www.kamus.web.id, agnostic = tidak percaya pada tuhan / takhyul, kecuali barang yang tampak.
Definisi utin, the girl who spelled it out, agnostic = percaya sama tuhan, tapi nggak terlalu ribet dengan prosesi, atau kepercayaan tertentu.

Because of life is too short...

Early when I started my day, Movic -one of my campus bud- gave me a call. He said one of our friend passed away in a car accident. Eggy, that was his name. A friend, and a son of my favorite english teacher back in high school. Such a tragic. Considering he was only 20.

I took-off some of my working hours to greet him a good bye. Honestly, I don't really know him that well, but he surely sent me a message. A question to be answered in a lot of ways. Depends on who's answering.

Because life is too short... What do you want to..(be/do/have/build/or almost any verb that going with 'what') ?

NEVER LIE IS THE BIGGEST LIE.

PEMILU. Well, need no comment there, right? I gave my shot, not knowing it was really the right one, but at least I gave it with my heart.
I voted with my fam, plus.... my little 4 years old nephew. He was such a cutie. He even had his finger marked, just to show to my other nephew home, that he also took the election. Gosh, having a kid, -maybe- not really a bad idea at all. But I hate the idea of having to marry someone. :D

Anyway, gotta be honest, I lied couple of times today. Wasn't really my favorite thing to do. But, hey, like or not, no one has a pure clean white sheet in their life.

As usual, my day is colored with stupid love thought. As I heard Fiona Apple's 'Accross The Universe', my mind flew away to my last year's 6 months of long distance relationship. Sariyo', my friend, send me mesaage, telling me long distance sucks. It is true. But it gave me a precoius, meaningfull 6 months.

Long distance love - sucks - but be true - in long distance - every kiss, every hug, every word, has more meaning.

I miss the love, dear history.

Life is like a rollercoaster. It gets your heart beaten fast, every now and then.