Anti Ecstasy

The sky above was a clear horizon
Even in the dark

The dancing light moved so fast
And so did I

The sweat was dripping down
While the music was beating up

I was as light as a feather
Kissing the air and touch the breeze

It was scary and blury
But yet, i felt the glory

Ahhh... it is too similar with being in love to someone.

A Threat

When being friendly is considered a threat
You smile
You shake hands
You share words
You share thoughts
Basically being a friend
Without any other intention
And guess what, u're a threat
What would you do?

Compiling Histories

To compile a history,
Is never easy.
Good one is a treasury.
The other one could be a misery.
But it's a history.
To compile a history,
drives me weary.
No matter what kind of memory.
It's a part of me.

Untuk Bapak. Yang selalu jadi idolaku.
Sedikitnya dirimu, selalu mengisi hariku.

Home Is Where The Angel Stay To Comfort

Have you ever ask yourself, for whom is it that you do the things you do everyday? Yes, we could have answer it with ‘ for ourself’. I know I would. But last weekend, Something came up, and completely change my own answer.

My deary mother was at the mall with my sis. They went out for a movie. I was suppose to pick them up. Not something that I do it in a regular base. But I did. As I waited for them to finish the movie, I was window shopping to this Ahlete’s Foot. Normally, I would pick up which one is it that suit me the best. Or, which one is it that I could give to my flirt or so called lover. I did think that way also. But as my eyes were captured by this cute little red fitness sneakers, I said to myself, this’ll look good on my mom at her aerobic session. And, so, as soon as she called and told me that she was done with the movie, I rushed her to try on the sneakers. I didn’t take no as an answer. I got her the red sneakers. Her eyes were smiling. I was home happy.

Later on that nite, since that was Saturday, I went out to Colors with some buds, and meet up the others for an event that Hard Rock had. We were partying. Not the wildest. But, it was hard enough. I didn’t come home that nite. Crashed in my best bud’s. When I came home, I was told that my mom just got back from ‘gerak jalan’, and find a glorious moment with her gank. They were asking, how could she end up with the red sneakers, the happening red sneakers. She felt like a trend setter, I guess. Moreover on the story, she told me that she was also quite occupied in answering her friends questions about my TV talkshow with Miss Universe just the nite before. Her Eyes were smiling. I was home happy.

After a short break, I find myself preparing for a weekend job. Being a host of a two hours even that my ‘campus’ held in the mall. I don’t feel like hangout that nite. So, I went home directly, with a quick stop by at the tukang terang bulan. My mom loves terang bulan. I got her the special one. Well, It was only a ‘terang bulan’. But again, Her Eyes were smiling. I was home happy.

O well, it wasn’t the most glorious weekend. But I’m so glad I find the real answer. If anyone ask: for whom is it that I do the things I do everyday, I would definitely answer it 'for HOME'. Cause in my Home, my Angel’s eyes will smile to give me the comfort. And I feel comfort just by comforting her.

Home

Yesterday, I had a blast day. Really. Well, I started early as usual. 7 o'clock at the office. But hay, i left early. 13.00, and I was home. Prepare everything to be on a date with Jeniffer Hawkins, the gal who actually got the universe crown this year. So, I put up a light grey shirt, and a match tie for that, which I ended up not using also. Telkom, the sponsor wants me to use their shirt instead. But there I finally met her at 3. The woman whom a lot of people named her as the most beautiful woman this year. It was a full 20 minutes interview, covered by a local TV. She was beautiful, nice, and friendly. Eventhough, at the end of the chat, i feel that Amelia Vega - Miss Universe also whom I met last year - is a lot nicer. Felt like Amelia has more inner beauty.

Huh! Enough with the beauty talk. After a glossy afternoon, I spend a bit time with sum crowds. A Crowd where I enjoyed so much, eventhough sometime I feel that I dont quite know how to fit in there. Anw, just before 8 pm, I was back at the Hard Rock. Meeting some friends. Chat a while, and got my soul stolen. For no reason why, i lost my energy. I knew that i still wanna go hang out.. felt like I have no one to go home to. :) And So.. I went home, with an empty mind and soul. Thankfully, I woke up fully charge & fresh in the morning.

Home. But Am I Really Home. Home Is Where The Heart Is.

Back To Life

Gotta admit. I was pretty occupied with myself lately. Not in a good way, but in -point of no return- way. At one period, i just felt that empty. My life is colorful, am single and fabulous(I think), but it was just empty. I couldn't even find one thing to write, from many things that had happened. But y'know what, i am back. And I will share more of my enormous inner here. Well, at least trying to anyway.

Working life, getting more and more excited. In a lot of ways. Knowing my self from within is never easy. Or so I thought and still think. But, it was just a part of life. Discovering that sometime we just have to be versatile. In Respons-ible and respons-able.

Love Life? Love has been kind to me. At least it gave me a sting of feeling every now and then. One person come after another. Never really gone that far. But each one of them have a separate room within. The romantic one, the fool one, the weird one, the -looking for sex- one, the misterious one, and the denial one(well, got this one a lot). I still haven found what I'm looking for though. A partner for a complete soul and mind. Huh! I guess that wouldn't be easy.

The Friendship is happening. Never had that much of a real crowd. But I have them. A real one.
Still, what i have for the closest ones around daily is merely a real friendship one. Hey, that is just life. Gotta pick one sometime. A friendship or a Netship.

This is my footprints on back to life, August 11, 2004.

Time Is Priceless

24 by 60 is never enough .
Work, play, sleep, and eat.
Sometime we just never get enough.
Try to get sick.
When the clock stop at your very own time.
When you have all the time needed.
But you just dont have the energy.
That's where it feels time is priceless.
Cause time its priceless, You dont want it turns useless.